.Unwear Thy Mask When The Party Ends.

Confession Of Broken Heart

I MISH YOU...

Tuesday, November 24, 2009 @ 2:24 AM

Engagement Day...

oh yeay... juz wanna share a news...

i juz got engaged... ENGAGED!!!

yea... on 23rd November 2009.. at 2.46pm... hehe.. im happy... at last!!!

oh well.. dun get me wrong.... its juz a piece of joke between me n ma bestie..
Me & Nyzie..
gile ke pe?!?! we r not LesB... hahaha!! we called it engaged cuz she bought for me a ring.. n we joked abt it.. Nanie.. u rmbr Nyzie curi ur cincin tunang? hahaha!!
at last... only Me & Nyzie went out together.. only both of us... hw much we mish hangin out together.. but sumhow i juz felt alot of things we've been missin.. indeed... d telephaty still dere... hahaha!! try la touch ehk... even only once.. its bring back a smile on ma face for a moment... hehe... love u fiancee!! hahahahaha!!!
HAPPY ENGAGEMENT NYZIE!!! muachkz!!

ermmm... seriously im gettin sott by dat.... dun think otherwise ehk!!! WE R STILL STRAIGHT!!! hahahahhaa!!! back to real life...

too many inside ma mind rite nw... i juz cant anihow express ma words in here lateli... imagine hw much i mish ma own privacy... everidae ive been haunted by all dis pamarazzi thingy... n all i can sae was...
I MISH MA PRIVACY!!!

im nt an artiste nor a personality or celebrity.. deres ntg abt me to brag or bitchin abt... but i juz dun understand y... haiz... as daes goes by... too many things came along with or without me noein it.. n each dae... im too down to think abt it... more n more hit me like a big waves hits d rock..

nw.. im bloggin while cryin... as much i mish it... i juz cant see d smile on ma face nw... too sober.. too heartbroken.. n as much im heartbroken to think abt him.. its over n done.. tot we can b together... darlin juz went off.. more than 3 daes.. n didnt return... whr cud he be? is he alrite? y i didnt heard anitin frm him? haiz..
whr r u dear?

how i wish tml nvr exist...

Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 11:26 PM

Gainin Ma Energy Back..

Afta daes n daes... Afta wks n wks... At last... Im boosting ma energy to go out dere n give ma all out... Haha!! Force maself to do so...

It's all started wf d dae i hv to go to wrk on Tuesday... Legend beb.. Sape Nanak buat kan.. So yea... Spent the whole dae dere... Dis time ard d security was damn strict!!! Alot of suspicious lookin ppls... Since I'm still nt fully alert n trained.. So I'm quite slow abt doin it... So things went well... Haha!!!

Thursday... Forced maself to d doc.. Thks to Darlin dear for accompany me.. Oh well... D check up was reali quite shocking for me.. Unxpected to hear wat d doc sae.. But yea.. Dun wori much aite ppls... Hope ur prayers will make me feel beta... Hugzzz!!! Overall... I juz need plenty of rest n dun overwork.. Can't carry tooo heavy things... So yea...

Afta dat... We went to have sum relaxation... Yea.. Since it's like quite sumtimes we didn't met.. So... Had sum heart-to-heart talk.. Even I'm half-concious... I Noe n rmbr everi single words... I rmbr I even hit d table n shout.. Hahaha!! Sorrie dear!! Hahahaha!! But afta d talk.. I felt much beta... N i'm alwaes hoping things will be fine n resumed as per normal... I've been alwaes wantin all this sorrows to end... I juz wish n hope... Cuz I didn't wanna see animore tears n sae hurtful words to him... N I'm thks to him for being dere for me... Love u alwaes dear... Hugzzz!!!

Woke up rise n shine wf him by ma side... Isn't it feel great to wake up next to ur love one... Haha!! Dun get mistaken kkk!!! D love care concern starts to show back afta we lost for quite sumtimes...

Den ltr dat aftanoon... Went to ma lil dot P1 Orientation... I reali felt like mummy sending her lil dot to sch... N d feelin was awesome... Even i can't do much of it... But d feelin was dere.. Preparation kott... Haha!! Too bad Darlin dun like it.. Boohoo... So everitin went fine till d registration whr it needs d parentz signatures...

Afta dat.. Went Hm n out again.. Dis time went to IT CLICKZ for printing n photocopying of impt docs.. Afta dat.. Went for photo ID taking.. So guz wats d purpose??? Yea!! INTERVIEW!! hahaha!! Preparation of d interview.. Noe wat.. We filled up d forms wf our frenz help thru tweet!! Hahaha!! Funnie kann.. Haha!!

Afta all d hussle n hassle.. Went to ma parentz anniversary dinner at Changi.. Am nt havin a great dinner.. Hard time swallowing d food... Dun ask!! N Noe wat.. I wanna Goreng Pisang but hate to wait.. N in d end.. I bought 2 packets of KUACHI!! hahaha!! So random kannn... Yea.. Datz make me full la kannn... Hahaha!!

So yest.. Sat.. Went for interview at e2i... Okeh.. We kinda late abit.. But nvrtheless... We did go for d interview... So I'm havin hard time cuz d pains start to give me Big Time!! Went on smoothly.. So nw hv to wait for another interview in 2 wks time.. N till wen I can start wrkin daaa!!! Oh yea.. I'm envy wf Cma... Her interviewer was so much fun!! He likes her la kannn... Miss Jenny nt dat bad too.. But I dunnoe y dis time I gugup la seh!! Speechless!! Hahaha!!!

Afta dat.. Me, Cma, Dee went to Whitesands to grab our late lunch.. We only ate large fries n drank large coke.. Boohoo.. Budget la kannn!! While waitin for Nyzie n Nanie.. We did gossips here n dere... Came along Nanie.. Den Nyzie n Fad.. Haha!! Had a great laugh wf dem...

Upon reaching D'Tent at DownTown... We met up wf NSA.. who was suppose to perform.. But were cancelled due time constraint.. Boohoo.. Howeva.. We managed to camwhore!! Haha!!! So we r reali planless... N Noe wat!! We watched Looney Tunes instead.. Hahaha!!! Den came along Didi... Camwhore.. Walk here n dere.. Den camwhore again.. N in d end... Slack at Mac.. Eat.. Camwhore.. Yea.. We reali had a great laughter la kann.. Afta dat went home...

So nw.. Yea.. I'm blogging... Reali felt so much beta to meet Nyzie n Nanie.. It's been quite sumtimes i had so much fun wf all ma gurls.. Love u both!! Muachkz!! Eventhou I'm havin hard time breathing n pains attacking me again... I still enjoyed maself for ma love ones' sake.. Boohoo.. I'm fine nw..

K laaaa... Must slp nw... Ltr goin for ma kuzzy' khatan.. Hehehe.. Big Boy alr seh... HugZzz u lil bro... Hehe..

Tkcr lovelies... Hugzzz!!

Sunday, November 22, 2009 @ 2:31 AM

Missing alot of ppls...

Hahaha!! Yea I dunnoe y lately... I start to mish alot of ppls... Be it ma own famili.. Ma kuzziezz... Ma best buddies.. Ma colleagues n ex colleagues.. ma association peeps... Ma fbianz... Ma local talents... Ma broz n sisz... N alot more... Hehe...

Mayb cuz I spend too much time at home dat I start to mish everione... Hehe.. But definitely... I do mish ma Bestie!!! Owe her Big Time!! Yea... We haven meet each other for almoz 2 wks since last FMA... haha!! Dat goes to nanie too.. But I'm glad dat both do keep d communication goin on.. Chat wf me... Sms nvrendin.. Put me on d phone alwaes.. Am definitely mish u gerlz... Heheh..

I mish all d guyz who used to b wf me...
Yea... Definitely I mish ma LATE EX... Even he no longer wf me.. But I still cud feel him near me... Nt to hurt ma darlin feelin.. But it's a matter of fact...

Nxt I mish ma SAVIOUR... I juz wanna let him Noe dat I still think of him n mish him damn vr badly... Boohoo...

Other than dat.. I MISH BABY DEAR2!! hahhaa!! It's been quite a long time I last chat wf him.. He's been bz wf alot of shows here n dere.. Furthermore no time to dropby.. But will alwaes wish him all de besh.. Hehe...

Plus... Missing SHAFIQ..!!! He seldom chat wf me but he alwaes b dere in ma msn n hp... Juz beep him n yea... Thks bro for bein dere...

Not to left out... I mish MAAN too.. Even he nw happy wf his new love... But I juz wanna let him Noe that I do mish him too... We nvr chat eversince i stopped comin to cafe.. So.. Mayb I mish those moments.. Oh well.. I mish goin to his gigs too.. Boohoo.. U making me mish u more...

Nxt I mish Mr BOY.. haha!! Windu lak tiba2 dgn abg boy.. Lately ni.. He kept askin ma health condition.. Even we keep in contact.. Dunnoe y I still mish him... Mish his performance thou!!! To his wifey, Kak Nadia.. I mish u Kak!!! Windu gile ni!!!

Nt forgettin I mish BABA ZIO!!! Yea... Mish him too... He's another guy who kept supporting wateva I do... Thks to u n wifey, Kak AIN for bein dere for me... hugzzz!!!

Suddenly I mish KIDZ too.. N Kak Jun!! Haha!! Hugzzz u both too...

MR NEW MAN... Abg ZAIBAKTIAN n kak INA... Couple who been wf me since we r ntg till d time we r sumbody... Hahaha!! Thks to their family too... Love u both...

MARIO.. dun ask me y... Feel d urge to MSG him.. But nahhh...

FIR.. I mish u too dear... No matter wat.. U still got dis lil gerl to chat wf yea... Haha!!!

ISHAM.. wooo!!! Dun get d wrong isham... Hahaha!! Even we chatted everidae... But I still mish him.. A dae without chattin wf him seems incomplete... Ahahahahahahaha!!!

SHAFYRE... hahhaa!!! So damn random.. But mish havin dis bro kept reminding me abt dis n dat... Mayb too long we didn't chatted...

Abg FYNO & Kak MEL... Abg n akak who alwaes give wise advices... Mish dem!! Mish their cheery happy face.. Hehe...

Dunnoe y I mish WAN!!! hahahha!! Mayb lately I've been thinkin things n sumtimes those things related to him... Even he hurt me too much... I believe... He still do think of me.. If nt y out of sudden he pop up in ma thinkin... Hahaha!!!

I mish MR PHOTOGRAPHER... doink!!! Funnie dat I mish him... Haha!!! He used to b nice to me.. But dunnoe y dis makes hard for us... Hahhaa!!!

I mish all FMA FAMZ... U Noe who u r guyz!!! Hahaha!!!

I got so many names to mention.. Sorrie dat I didn't mention ur name.. But no matter wat... I do mish u all thou...

On top of everione... I DEFINITELY MISH MA DARLIN XXXTREEEMMEEELLYYY VERYYY MUCHHH!!! mish u dear.. Badly mish u... Even we nw seldom contacting each other due to ur busyness... I reali hope we do hv a make up communication.. U acting seemly ntg happen... Boohoo... But no matter wat.. I do keep up to our promises.. Will alwaes b wf u dear no matter wat hinders us nw or ltr... It's becuz of u that I continue wf ma life n dreams... U keep me goin on stronger by daes... I reali love u darlin.. Love u sooooo much!!! Thks for bein wf me again n again n again n nvr stop bein wf me... I reali appreciate all ur loves for me all this while n ur nvrendin love will alwaes melts me... Hehe... Promise won't leave u no matter wat till death do us apart...

Okeh3... No good praise too much.. Nanti riak!! Nanak!!! Hehe... But i reali mish him rite nw.. Boohoo... N I reali need him nw.. Esp in time I'm feelin superb sick... I dunwan he to feel hurt by havin me mish alot of pplz... But u r d one who I mish more by each dae.. U seldom MSG me darlin.. N sumtimes u dun even reply.. I alwaes avoid havin all those tots... But I love u n I trust u dear... Thks for msgin me once or twice a dae.. U make ma dae thou... Hearts u alot swtheart...

K enuf ays!!! Is dis hw a heartbroken girl fall in love again reacted in dis manner? Hahahaha!!!

Indeed... I mish all of u out dere... Hit me back if u mish me too... Haha!!! Kk.. I'm blabbin again... Haha!! K la... Chiowz!!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009 @ 12:44 AM

New Blog Skin..

took me full 2hrs to complete this new skin.. i dunnoe y i felt d pink skin was too much!! haha!! suddenly i found dis skin... ive been aiming it for quite sumtimes.. but i hate d navigation... so tot of editin it here n dere to make it a normal blog.. haha!! ma usual layout of cuz.. thou its nt to cool for sum others.. to me.. i found d meanin behind dis skin...

yesh... all this while ive been toooooo exposed.. n its time nw to hide behind those masks.. hiding n runnin wont bring u to aniwhr.. true enuf... but i dunnoe y i feel dat... its beta for me to hide rite nw... hahaha!!

other than hiding... i felt dat all this while... ive "been" an IMPERSONATOR... datz wat ppls USED TO CALL ME DAT!! haiz... so... let me juz hid behind those masks..

aarrggghhh!! im tired alr... wateva it is... im still ached by everitin dat happened... recently... got another msg at FB... i dunnoe wat else ive had done to deserve that kind of msg.. im totali clueless of wat happenin between them.. n dere sumbody told me to back off their relationship.. hey!! ive got no time for hanky panky tales.. ive got so much things to think.. to ill-treat ppls?? NVR!!!! i respect who u r... so i hope everitin is clear.. i dun wish to hv animore nonsense.. rmbr dat!! once again.. i dun hold grudges to both of u... i juz dun understand wat n why im in both of ur relationship..?? no matter wat.. i juz wish la kann.. everitin will b fine... NO MORE HANKY PANKY!!! NO MORE STORIES BEHIND WALLS!!!

k.. earli in d mrng make me sick n tired.. haiz... too much tears alr... ache here n dere... boohoo...

oh yea... end ma post wf a vid.. hooked by dis lady..
Melanie Fiona.. It Kills Me..
Njoy!! Mrng!!

Sunday, November 15, 2009 @ 7:04 AM